“Sometimes, immersed in his books, there would come to him the awareness of all that he did not know, of all that he had not read; and the serenity for which he labored was shattered as he realized the little time he had in life to read so much, to learn what he had to know.” - John Edward Williams, Stoner
Sunday, November 24, 2013
It's been four weeks since I posted anything. I couldn't believe that when I looked at my last post. I don't know if I've ever gone that long without posting something on my blog. I've been going through some changes. I've been very emotional about it. One of the first things to fall to the side was my blogs. I think about it, I think about how long it's been since I put some kind of thought about anything up. I have drafts of posts that haven't been finished yet, that aren't even close!
The centre of all this is the new job. I posted a while ago that my contract was ending at my old job and they weren't keeping me on. I (luckily) found a job that started right away. It's in the same industry, but different in what they want me to do. I know they hired me for my industry experience and I'm grateful for not being unemployed. This job is just a lot of work. A LOT. Much more than my last job. What I've lost is my work/life balance. I'm learning to deal with the tiredness I now feel when I get home from the office. It's mostly mental, but it seeps into my muscles. I only seem to have the energy to take care of the kids. Often, by the time they've gone to bed, I'm spent. It's been a process of getting used to this and bringing my energy levels up, which I don't know if I've even accomplished that.
I almost didn't write about this absence. I don't usually do one of those "I'm taking a break." posts. If I don't have anything to say, I don't say anything. But it's never been this long. It's been a week, maybe two, but not four. I have still commented on other blogs, I've still tweeted. My new job has blocked a lot of social media sites. Apparently it was a problem, but it seems to actually go against what my job does, as I think we need to go on Facebook, Twitter, etc., for actual, professional reasons. It was hindering my job one day, which is how I found out... I digress. What I want to say is that I'm going to try to be back. I'd like to finish the posts I've already started, I'd like to get back to a happy work/life balance. I think today is a start.